Emotional sleight of hand

Deception…now that’s a jagged little pill. I feel like people thought genuine are now in a constant state of propitiation. I feel like I’m being tested, to see how long it will take for me to break and become subservient. I’m no bronc. Little do they know I’m extremely difficult to break, mostly because I have a strong mind, good heart, and a very low tolerance for bullshit. I will choose to end the association long before I get close to breaking. I find myself being put in a tough position, pitted against someone I’ve known for eons, though it seems more to me like I’m being forced to choose sides, forced to give up close friends. I sense that he’s scared of me, of what I can become, and of being below me. That’s where things are headed quickly, but he also knows he’s ignorant of many aspects of how life works, and his past, and he knowingly wishes to remain so. He cannot possibly keep up to par with me if he doesn’t learn. It’s funny, he tells me things he senses, he explains how he views aspects of his life, and all of it is misinterpreted. He’s not nearly as perceptive as he imagines, and what perception he does have is not super accurate. He’d better realize soon that I’m not one to be bridled, and if his attempts persist he’ll be purged just like anyone else who has tried. I do not need him, I want him…if he were gone tomorrow I’d be just fine, I did well before, I’ll do well again.